i must admit

I miss this place so much. But it is very hard to focus.

I want this story out - it needs to find a place - but I must admit - that there is more going on in my life than I care to admit to right now.

And sometimes I wonder how it will all play out.

The princess asked to see my step mom today. She has never seen "a real-life villain."

"We would not have to get too close," she says. "Like, we could just hide in the bushes and wait for her to come out - so we could see her, and see how evil she looks."

The kid will be damn disappointed at when there is no basket of poisoned apples, or glittery black cloak. She is expecting pet ravens and thunder claps.

Still, I wonder sometimes. Maybe this quest is not about getting back at anyone. Maybe it is not about standing up to her at all. Maybe it is about taking the princess for a little visit, letting her look into those crazy brown eyes and then just forgiving.

Maybe the whole point here is not how much we suffered, but that in spite of it, we are still ok.